Woots~ Finally, I did get to trim my hair. Somehow, I think that my fringe is a little too short. But anyways, I didnt regret much. At least I could get rid of that mushroom hair. Urgh.

Oh yah! Yesterday was splendid! Met Ct and her cousin over at Causeway Point after which we proceeded to Cash Studio to karaoke! heee. Had lotsa fun la. The three of us. Singing and screaming our lungs out like nobody's business! And that left me with a sorethroat and losing my voice. Urgh. I sure did scream alot ayee! haha. BUT! I'm not done karaoke-ing laa. I had to leave early yesterday cos Mummy was waiting at home. I had to go over Uncle Mimi's place to bring over some stuffs for my Aunt at Italy. So yaa. Care for a karaoke session anyone? heh.

I'm missing someone currently. It's been long since I last posted his pic. And he's none other than my bf. Yup! I miss him badly. Please come back soon dear. =( Oh yahh! And i miss you with hair! heh. *winks*

`Fyd.

Heyya! Where should I start? Hmm.. Alright, first and foremost, bf has booked in as early as 7.30am this morning. And that simply means, I'll be all alone again. He was so worried the day before thinking of the posting result. And yeah, luck was not on his side. He didnt get to post out. He gotta stay there at the same camp for the remaining 1 yr 8 mths. Sigh. He msged me in the morning to tell me the result and complain how fcuked up he's feeling.

I sure do realise one thing. Things have been so unfair towards the both of us. For me, I failed my exam. And for him, he didnt get to post out. Well baby, we'll pull it through together alright. I promise, I'll be waiting for you no matter how long it's gonna take. Just be strong and accept everything with an open mind aye darling. Somehow, life's never fair baby. But everything happens for a reason. This is just the beginning of everything baby.

Alright girls, some of you might be wondering what's the difference btwn getting posted out and not getting posted out? Well, before posting out, they undergo POP (Passing Out Parade). Before they get to post out, they undergo BMT (Basic Military Training). BMT took like 2-3 mths to complete. Results of posting depends. If you're posted out, you will be assigned to other camps instead of the camp you're currently in. If you're not, you gotta stay ur whole 2 yrs at the same camp. Not sure of the travellings that they are involved. For my bf, who didnt get to post out, he needs to travel to Brunei somewhere in November this yr. And next, Taiwan. Upcoming events, 8 days field camp and NDP. That simply means, they're taking away our Saturday outing! Shucks! Life is so cruel sometimes. But, yaaa.. I just gotta accept it the way it is. Whatever it takes to be with you baby, I'm ready to face all the obstacles that's falling upon me.

Wednesday will be the BLPSians outing. And I'm totally 'kering' now. Just hope my dad gets his pay by tomorrow. Eheh! *evil grin* Am looking forward to this Wednesday.

To Methricals, sorry for I'm unable to attend your chalet cos I seriously am out of cash now. Really sorry. Will make it up to you guys one day. =)

To BF, be strong kay baby. You know how much I love you and am willing to wait for you. =)

`Fyd.

Hum hum.. heyss! Sorry for not updating for quite sometime peeps! From ups to downs and ups to downs. Urgh. Sucha rollercoaster ride aye? Hurhur. That’s life la aye. No matter what, you still gotta accept it the way it is and handle it at your own way.

You guys might be wondering what am I up to? Well, there’s nothing much in particular. It’s just that I don’t feel like updating cos I might just write down all those unnecessary things that shouldn’t be posted up here. There were lotsa traumas going on past few days, but I’m not gonna elaborate on those cos it’s sucha waste of time when I can actually post down all the beautiful things in the world!

From 17th march all the way to 24th march, lots of things had happened. But it’s gonna be very lengthy if I’m gonna write it all down here. Anyhooos, I’ll just write on those which are more in my priority list aye.

Last Saturday and Sunday, I spent my time in the hospital with the devils and my bf. Prior to the previous entry, where Nadhir’s name was mentioned.. Yup, he was admitted to the hospital on the Friday due to a bike accident. Lots of bruises. His face was half swollen and there were stitches from his forehead all the way to his cheeks andd to his chest. Poor thing. I nearly cried looking at his condition the first thing on Saturday. He was in sucha bad state. I’m grateful now that he’s back at home. Was discharged on Wednesday. And I heard his getting better. That’s good aye. So yahh.. please ride safely next time hor bro. And this goes to my bf and whoever who rides okay! Not forgetting my daddy and uncles.

Tuesday night, 12am, prolly Wednesday.. my semester results were released. I had butterflies in my stomach. The feeling was so different la. I knew something has gotta be wrong. But I ignored the instinct and became hyper instead. Was chatting with the whole class in MSN. Everyone was nervous except for those smart alexes laa. I cant be bothered also. When the time comes to check, I became numb. Totally numb. And tears started to drip. Full of regrets. Disappointment. Yeah, I failed one of the core modules. It was that bad. Even though it’s just one pathetic module. So yaaa.. enough of that already. That was one of the reasons whyy I didn’t intend to update this blog of mine.

Eventually, I’m able to get over it and smile. Be optimistic. I make a promise to myself, that I can pull it through next semester. I can do it. Yess, Fydah cann do it! I’ll put in more effort and interest to every module. I’ll try my very best! Wishh me luck people! I’ll make sure that I’m not gonna disappoint anyone this time round especially my parents.

To Bf, I love you and will always do no matter what.

To Sya, Ayne and My Bodyguard, I’ve updated! Don’t miss me kayys! =)

`Fyd.

Alright, it's gonna be a short post.

To Ayun, thanks for the treat once againn! andd it was a great date! We sure did laugh our ass off today ayee! haha. And we didnt really camwhored today. sobs sobs. but yeah, we sure will in the next outing with the rest of the blpsians ayeee. =)

To Mas, hey gf~ relax ayee. i know how you're feeling right noww. sigh. i'm sad for nadhir too. just hope he will get better okays. will see you tmr if i'm paying him a visit kays. *hugss*

To Nadhir, I just hope you will get better ayte bro. I was so shocked upon hearing the news from Man. Get well sooon!

To Beruk and Friends, Pleaseeee horrr, stopp your nonsense. Sickening la seii you all. Especially you siaa Berukk. You're getting on my nerves.

To Babylove, I lovee youuu and I miss youu ohhhhh soo muchhhh sayangg! Comee backk sooon! I cannot waitttt any longeerrrr! *hugsss&kissesssss* =)

`Fyd.

Obviously, I gotta send Nurul back home today since I asked her to sleep over my place last night. Heh. Well, it's fine with me tho. Cos, I missed that little boy who shares the same birthday as me. Yeahh, that cute little bwoyy by the name of, Muhd Lutfi Qayyum. Will upload his photos. =)

Weeeees! It has been long since I last updated aye! heh. Was trying to figure out just what to update laa. And now, I'm all prepared and excited to update! Are you ready people??! heeee. On your mark, get set, GO! *poof* haha!

So can you see how irritating that kid is?? He cannot stand still everytime I wanted to snap his picture! And he got me so annoyed! haha. Naughty naughty ehh! Grrr. But he's cutee! hoho.

At around 5 plus in the afternoon, we all headed to Causeway Point to walk around. And met Uncle Mimi there with his family of course! And again, another bunch or irritating lil cousins around! And that simply means DOUBLE FUN AND DOUBLE IRRITATE-NESS! hurhur. We had our dinner over at Banquet. As usual, I'd get myself the Big Prawn Mee Hoon Kway. Yummyliciouss I tell you! hoho.

Afterr that heavy dinner, I got myself a top! Heeee. And I so love it laaa! I know my baby is angry cos I bought lots of tops just recently. heh. But oh welll, you know me right darling?? heeee. Muahhhs!

UPDATES ON 12/03/07, MONDAY.

I was woke up by two monsters! haha. My dad and my lil cousin, Liza. She slept over my place yesterday. And I'm so sorry that I didnt really layan her that much in the morning. haha! My eyes were too heavy lah seii. Sorry horrr. But I did make it up to you by accompanying youu to the library kan? So, okay la tuhh ehh. heh.

Liza wanted to go library so much, that I asked her to sleep over my house and promised her that I'm gonna accompany her to the library. And we asked Nurul along. We gotta pick Nurul up at Sembawang and then off to Jurong East Library. I borrowed two books, Liza and Nurul borrowed four. Yess, I feel like reading. heh. Bleargh.

After much strolling around the library, we headed for KFC to get our lunch. So funny laaa. Nurul ate the most! Hurhur. And sadly, Liza and Nurul, they're gaining weight. And urgh, somehow I think they're gonna win me in terms of size and all. Sigh. I wanna gain weightt and height laa pleasee! Ohh, that sounded so pathetic. I know. Hurhur. But who cares? heh.

After lunch, we sent Liza home and slacked a little at my uncle's place. After which, we met my mummy over at Jurong East to head home together. And because I feel lazy and tired to send Nurul back home, I asked her to sleep over instead! Heh. And she's soundly asleep now! haha.

And here's some photos, we took earlier on at home. =)

`Fyd.

P/s: BF! I miss you so muchh! Come back soon! Muahhs!

So, how was my day? Simply great great great despite the hot climate over at the stadium. hurhur. Alright, my dearest lil cousin didnt win anyy of the events simply because his leg is injured. That was the excuse he gave. haha! Nvm laa Akif, try again next year hokayy! I'll be supporting you all the wayy. GO GREEN GO~ heeee.

So yaa.. I did manage to find something to do today. After the long night chats withh bf's cousin, Acap, an idea struck me. hehs. Thanks ayee!

I feel a whole lot better after having a chat with a friend whom I used to be close with. And it was much easier for me to talk to him cos he's experiencing the same dilemma plus he knew the people I'm referring to. He had to agree that sometimes we gotta move on with our life even without getting what we wanted. And thanks for sparing that time just for me even though you were feeling rather sleepy and you had to wake up early the next morning! Do take care ayte friend! =)

So yahh, have been rotting at home since monday. To be more precise, since the holiday started! Urgh. Sounds fun rightt? But NOOOOO! There's nothing to do but to just appear online in MSN but not chatting. Hurhur. It's either I'd be in bed resting and smsing my bf or SLEEPING! Uh huh.. SLEEPING! On top of that, I've been showeringg in the late afternoons. hurhur. Aiyerr, Fyd Fyd.. ape nak jadii..

And of course, I'm looking forward for my bf's return everyday cos I'm bored to death! He told me to just stay at home if there's no need to go out. Yeah, he told me to wait for him and go out with him on the saturdays. Hurhur. Okayy. Will wait for youu. But, next week.. I'll be out with my utmost blurrr gf, my one and only bestfriendd, Khairunnisa. I miss going out with her lah can! And darling, it's just the two of us kays. No Afiq. No Luqman. No others! heeees. Confirm romantic gituk kan! haha. And and, you're giving me a treatt for making me wait! haaaas.

Andd errr, if anyone of you out there need company for jogging, do ask me and bring me along aye. It's been long since I last jog. VERY LONG laaa cann. hurhur. I know it's kinda weird but I just have the sudden urge to jog? hurhur. So yaahhh, do tell me la. And i'll join you people if I'm free that is. Gotta ask my bf to jog with me one day! hehs.

Kays laaa. I need to bathe already. Gotta meet mummy later on at Causeway Point. And daddy, I wanna get a new memory stick!! Grrr.

`Fyd.

Somehow it saddens me when people or rather an acquaintance who doesn't notice me even when I’m there. I have to agree that I’m the kind of person who doesn’t commit that much in friendship. I’m in a world of my own. ALWAYS. Or should I say, in the world of my boyfriend? Simply because, I only have my boyfriend to count on.

I maybe neglecting my friends but they are never once forgotten. I know some way or another; I still do need friends by my side for me to rely on and a shoulder to cry on. But sometimes, I’d prefer to stay all silent and pretend that I’m fine. And then I’ll find my boyfriend to share the sadness that filled me and resulted me in tears. I know having a boyfriend is not everything. We started off being friends and that’s where friendship is involved. Without friendship, there’s never gonna be a starting of a LOVE –ship. Therefore, friendship is way more important and carries a very high weightage compared to LOVE –ship. It started of from friendship and then it blossomed, or rather the feelings blossomed to move further to something more serious like, LOVE –ship.

I ain’t angry or jealous or whatsoever, but seriously... I’m disappointed and sad. Only god knows why. And boyfriend, you know just what I’m going through. You’re the only person who understands how I feel at this point of time. You remembered those times I cried and complained to you how lonely I am even with friends. You tell me time and again to throw all those lonely thoughts in my mind and always remember that I have you. You told me, it’s okay to be treated invisible by other parties but not you. Your words gave me strength to move on with my life. To face all the obstacles that’s falling upon me. And with that very strength, I believe I could cross all the hurdles alone if only you were by my side. You are indeed my EVERYTHING.

From today onwards, things will change. My world, my life. Like the saying goes “Friends come and go”. If that’s how it is supposed to be, then I’ll accept the fact. And thanks to the people who regard me as their friend. Much appreciation. Cheers people! =)

`Fyd.

Alright, as promised. I'll upload the photos taken last friday withh my lovely gf, Mas. It was a splendid outing. We had almost chocolates and more chocolates. First stop, CHIPPY. Next stop, CHOCZ. Final destination, GELARE. Thanks for the dayy and the trouble to go around the whole of City Hall and Far East just to print out the photo and letter and also to laminate them. It was worthwhile cos my BF likes it so muchh!

UPDATES ON 3RD MARCH 2007, SATURDAY.

After 2 weeks of absence from the BF, we finally met! Spent the whole day together over at town then to City Hall. Initially he wanted to get a dress for me, but urgh was cancelled due to some circumstances and he promised me that he'll get me one on our 1 yr anniversary. Look baby, I'm waitingg. heh. Watched Hannibal Rising over at Marina's cinema. And mind you it's really NC16 laa. Even at the age of 18 going 19, I had to hide behind my bf or even make him shut my eyes cos some parts of the scene was really urgh gross laa. Heads were chopped off. Human bodies were sliced alive! Eeeeeeks! Shall not elaborate more. It's highly recommended BUT you know i know lah kayys. Heeee.

Got a scolding from the BF for refusing to eat! Urghh. And he sounded so matrep lahh siaa. Aiyerr. Baby, dont do that again okay? Even though you're angry, you must sayang-sayang me still okays? haha. Later I cry again how? Eventually, I did have my dinner la. We bought a meal over at Burger King and ate under the void deck. BF spoonfeed-ed me. Heee. Thanks baby! I love you manymany laaa! Muahhss!

It was a great day out with my lovely bf. BUT, he always fell asleep if there's a chance to! Grrr. And left me all alone. Hmpf. But still, I love you! heee.

UPDATES ON 4TH MARCH 2007, SUNDAY.

Relatives came over. BF came over for a short while only to get his lunch at Causeway Point's KFC. He had to leave early cos it started to pour. And today's our 10th Monthsary! HAPPY 10TH MONTHSARY baby! Muahs! I'd like to take this opportunity to wish my cousin, FAUZI, a HAPPY 2 YEARS & 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY together with his gf. Happy-happy always kays! And last till eternity! =)

The photo i printed and laminated for him. Credits to Mas again.

And before I forgot, I'd like to thanks my daddy for getting me a new phone! Heee. Love you manymany lahh daddyku! Hoho. And all I need now is to get either a 512mb memory stick or 1gb. See how laa kayys. =)

`Fyd.

It was supposed to be a very meaningful and joyful day for me today. Firstly, today was my last paper and that means I'm gonna have a complete holiday for 6 weeks until the 15th of April. Secondly, BF booked out earlier today. Last but not least, I met Mas gf over for mars bars, strawberry dip in chocolate, basket waffle ice cream or sundae if I'm not wrong and not forgetting to get all the 10th Monthsary stuffs done. And I'd like to thank my gf again for accompanying me to do all the laminations and stuffs.

But things went wrong. I dont know why. Maybe it was me who started to feel uneasy or rather a little insecure or something. Perhaps, I'm falling sick. Oh, how good to fall sick especially during the holidays. hurhur. It was a fun day out with the gf and later on with my parents. Had a lovely day with them. A VERY LOVELY one. But it turned out to be ugly when I reached home. Sigh.

I'm too confused. I couldnt stop crying. And now that my eyes are swollen, how am I suppose to go out tmr? Urgh.

To Bombi, thanks for the call. I mean, I wasnt the one who asked you to call. But you called out of a sudden. And your call brightens me up a little. And yes, you did cheer me up a little too. Thanks aye buddy. It's been long since I last hang out with you people, and I really miss you all so muchh. Take care ya'll.

I'll do the uploading of photos in my next entry and that is if I'm in a good mood. So till then. I'll end my chantings here. Goodnight!

`Fyd.

BF just called at 10pm! heee. And I was jumping for joy laaaa! heee. Was checking my phone the whole day today to see if I've received any calls or msgs from him! I really miss himm manymany laaa! Only god knows how muchh. Teeeheee. Before he called up, there were lots of things that was held in mind to tell the BF. But as soon as he called, all vanished! haha. Maybe I was too overjoyed laa! SO HAPPY lah can!

Mas noticed something abt me today. I was a little too slow or should I say BLURR? haaaa. I was blurr laaa. J kays! heeee. But only today I hope. If at any point of time after today I get so blurr, that means I'm making it out okay. Not for real okays Mas darling? heeee. Weeeeee~ She's happy, I'm happy, EVERYONE's HAPPY! heeee.

Tomorrow's my very last paper! And I'm already hoorah -hooray -ING here! heee. Just away to de-stress yourself laa. And I refused to touch any notes once I reached home. Cos, I dont want to get all stressed up again like few hours ago while studying with the rest. Heh. But, do hope for the best for me okays people? heeee. I think I'm going bonkerz just like Mas already laa. Betul punyaa J eh Mas?! heeee. Okays laa people, happy happy selaluu! (happy happy always!) =)

`Fyd.

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