Tuesday, April 24, 2007
I wanna be a changed person. I wanna be a better person. Things have not been good for me. There were tonnes of advices given, and yeah.. it's up to me to heed them or not. I'm confused and feeling numb.
I'd prefer to be isolated at least for now. I need time alone to pick up myself again and reflect on the things I have done. Be it good or bad. I'll try and persevere. I'll try to stop crying like I always did. I dont wanna depend on anyone.
To my friends, I will not be updating for sometime now. I need space to breathe. Hope you guys understand. So long. Take care.
`Fydah.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Weeees~ I realised something. The eagerness to update comes when I have lots of photos to share. haha! I'm loving school laa. Somehow.
See.. despite the fact that I'm tired and all, I still put in the effort to update this blog of mine for you guys to read lor. haha! So yaa.. and for goodness sake, the lessons today ended at 9.30pm! And I rushed home just to transfer the photos andd update my blog! haha.
Mind you, just today I had nearly 6hrs break! from 1pm to 6.40pm! Supposedly, there's lesson at 2pm but was postphoned. The practical lesson at 4pm-6pm was cancelled cos the tutor was sick. And so almost the whole of EC0614 went down to Amk Hub. Okay fine! The next time round if I couldnt attend any of the lesson, I'll tell them I fall sick suddenly. haha! Okay fyd, takmo merepek please.
And guess what? The data & network communication's tutor is kind of good looking la can! haha. He doesnt look his age though. And I'm pretty sure the upcoming practicals will be so much fun! haha. Mr Lionel! heh.
So yaa.. I'm gonna upload the photos taken at Ang Mo Kio's Kpool. =)
See.. despite the fact that I'm tired and all, I still put in the effort to update this blog of mine for you guys to read lor. haha! So yaa.. and for goodness sake, the lessons today ended at 9.30pm! And I rushed home just to transfer the photos andd update my blog! haha.
Mind you, just today I had nearly 6hrs break! from 1pm to 6.40pm! Supposedly, there's lesson at 2pm but was postphoned. The practical lesson at 4pm-6pm was cancelled cos the tutor was sick. And so almost the whole of EC0614 went down to Amk Hub. Okay fine! The next time round if I couldnt attend any of the lesson, I'll tell them I fall sick suddenly. haha! Okay fyd, takmo merepek please.
And guess what? The data & network communication's tutor is kind of good looking la can! haha. He doesnt look his age though. And I'm pretty sure the upcoming practicals will be so much fun! haha. Mr Lionel! heh.
So yaa.. I'm gonna upload the photos taken at Ang Mo Kio's Kpool. =)
The usual babes.
Janan got surrounded by the babes.
Ben's turn to be surrounded. 
EC0614 Babes.
Joseph, the spikey hair boy's turn to be surrounded.
The Class Rep's turn. 
Alright Lin, dont ask me to do this again k.
I'm loving my croc-a-doodle-doo!
Uh uh. Cannot make it, too cute! hahs.
Solarized.
The babes again. Bear with us k.
Babes: We are the future engineers. Uh uh. Factory workers. =)
Last but not least.
Beware! It's contagious. heh.
`Fyd.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
They are the reason to why I wasnt reluctant to go to school! Simply because, these three wonderful girls never fail to make me smile the whole day in school! No matter how down I could be, somehow their littlest jokes will make me smile again! Thanks ladies! =)
So yaa.. here are some photos to add on to the collection taken yesterday!
My eyebags: The result of crying and staying up late at night!
The pretend to-be-cute fever.
Me & Huiwen.
Me & Huis.
Huiwen: Come smell my armpit! Lin: Helpp! I cannot breathe! =)
EC0614 babes.
When there's nothing better left to do.
So yaa.. that's about it! Take care!
`Fyd.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
School starts today. Hurhur. Should I include the "YAY!" in? hahs. Should I include the excitement? Hahs. A TOTAL NO la seii! I didnt enjoy schoold todayy until only at the last 2 hours practical lesson. Simply because, I get to meet my classmates! Yaa.. like finally I get to see them after the so long la seii! hahs.
The Digital Electronics lecture was just an OKAY for me la. I saw one of my primary schoolmate and she's my classmate when we were in primary 1 & 2. hahs! Sucha coincidence ayee. But, I didnt talk to her. haha! Prolly, it was just a hi-bye kinda case. hurhur. Fyd fyd, take care seii. Takmo sombong seii. Not sombong la seii, shy only. haha!
After which was break! I made Amin skipped his lecture just to accompany me for my break! hoho. Fyd fyd.. again seii, take care seii. But anyways, thanks hor Amin!! Initially, I thought of skipping the 1pm lecture cos I knew no one from there. But something stopped me from doing so. I dont know why. So yaa, I attended the lecture. And there goes a malay girl, " Hmm.. whichh class are you from?" I went like.. " ummm.. err.. you mean.. AJ?" Then she went.. " Yaaa! Correct2.(smile)" haha. And from that conversation onwards, we started talking and became friends la. But still, I didnt have that much topics to talk cos I was so sleepy laa seii. Cos, starting up a business or rather being an entrepreneur is really not in my list la seii. But what to do, no choice. haha! So yaaa.. we were asked to form a group of 5-6 each. And tadaaaa~ there comes 4 more friends! haha.
Next break, 3pm. Met Acap over at BLK A. And then we chitchat-ed over at the atrium while waiting for Nadhir's arrival. About half an hour later, Nadhir finally arrived. Again, we chitchat-ed. Talked rubbish.. and after which me and Acap proceed to our individual lessons and Nadhir, home sweet home.
The most exciting part for today was whenn Huiwen started asking this particular question to me.. " Fydah, your bf got hair already ah?" haha! Then the rest was like laughing our ass off! Especially Lin laa seii! And Lin replied her.. " Of course laa! Luqman underwent puberty already what! Of course laa got hair! haha." Sucha a strange question from a "pleasant" girl. haha! She is pleasant laa.. but we dirtied her mind after 6 weeks of being "clean" minded. hoho.
The next question she asked while we were on our way home, " ehh Fydahh, why today you so high ah?" haha! I was like.. "Huh? High? Ohhs! Cos I was low all the way from 10am to 3pm! haha. Of course laa I will be high seeing you guys! Like finally I can irritate someone!" hoho. Now, THAT IS SCHOOL baybehh! heee.
Alright, too much on school already. Note, I'm gonna include lots of excitements here. So bear with me k.
FINALLY, MY BF CALLED! hoho. LIKE FINALLY I GET TO TALK TO HIM AND LISTEN TO HIS OH-SO-MACHO VOICE! heeee. YAY! YAY! YAY! BABY, I MISS YOU TRUCKLOADS LA! I'VE BEEN CRYING EVERYNIGHT THINKING AND MISSING YOU. AND I'VE BEEN TAKING FLU PILLS JUST TO MAKE SURE I CAN SLEEP EARLY. I MISS YOU DEARLY. COME HOME SOON. I NEED YOU.
`Fyd.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Alright Peeps, I've just tried linker. To those who are already linked, you dont have to link yourself. To newcomers or whoever who drop by who would want me to link you up, do just link yourself up from the linker ayee. =)
And oh yahh!! Do enjoyy the songg! MAGALENHA BAYBEHH!
Hmm. Somehow Mas and me have our very own version of this song that turns out to be a recipe! hahs. COOLIOS! MAGALENHA BAYBEHH!
`Fyd.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Hello peeps! Well, I've been slacking the whole day this week at home. And all I could do is sleep, watch tv or going online. Sucha boring life aye? Sigh. That is how my holiday is like. 3 more days before school starts. I'm so not prepared. Seriously. I cannnot imagine how would it be like withh a whole different group of people around me especially in lectures. Urgh. And somehow, they might think I'm a new student there when the truth is, I'm a repeat student.
Okay, school aside. Met Mas for a short while earlier on to pass her the money I've borrowed. We did some catching up stuffs a little while Ipan was busy smoking away. hurhur. So yah.. After which they had to leave to catch a movie over at Plaza Singapura. Hope you both have a great time ayee!
I'm missing my babyboy so muchh till I have problem sleeping at night. Yeah, I had sleepless nights. Eversince he left for field training. I did cry a little looking back at the sweetest times. Looking at how pampered I am when I'm with him. And while typing this down, tears roll down on my cheek. I'm missing him truckloads laa.
Somebody help me. =(
`Fyd.
Imeem is getting on my nerves. I cant autoplay that song. Tsk.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Okay. In prior to Dil's request of speaking in malay. I will now type every single thing in malay. Just for this entry I supposed. So, to my chinese friends, my apologies.
Bismillahirahmanirahim.
Disebalik senyuman yang terpampar di raut wajahku ini, tersembunyi kekusutan dan kehampaan yang tidak dapat aku halangi. Aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak mengambil peduli tetapi amat sukar bagiku.
Adakah ini balasannya untuk aku, seorang manusia yang keseorangan, ditimpa lagi musibah-musibah yang tidak dapat aku pikul. Tiada seorang pun yang dapat membantu selain diriku sendiri. Aku redha. Aku hanya dapat menyerahkan semuanya pada Illahi. Aku tidak mahu dibenci ataupun dicaci. Aku hanya seorang manusia biasa yang masih lagi mencari erti kehidupan yang sebenarnya.
Apakah erti persahabatan? Adakah ia hanya satu rekreasi semata-mata? Sarankan, erti benar persahabatan belum lagi ditemui. Aku sedar bahawa teman datang dan pergi. Aku juga terima akan kesedaran itu. Tapi sampai bila harus aku lalui kedatangan dan pemergian ini? Aku bingung. Hidup tanpa teman, adalah lumrah bagiku. Disebalik itu, aku perlukan seorang teman yang dapat mengisi kekosongan hidupku. Seorang teman yang mengenal erti nilai persahabatan. Mungkin juga, suatu hari nanti akanku temu juga dengan teman yang selama ini ku cari. Kepada teman-temanku, yang jauh dari pandagan tetapi dekat di hati, terima kasih atas segalanya. Aku tidak mungkin bisa berkelakuan seperti dahulu. Kerna aku sedar akan perubahan-perubahan di sekelilingku. Aku mungkin juga berubah, tetapi untuk sebaiknya.
Kepada seorang lagi insan yang amat aku sayangi dan hormati, aku harap kau dapat mengubah pendirianmu yang kian hilang arah. Aku hampa atas apa yang terjadi dan apa yang terbuku dihatimu. Aku sedar bahawa aku tidak berhak untuk mengatakan sebarang alasan ataupun nasihat, tetapi aku mohon untuk kebahagian keluargamu, berubahlah.
Kepada kekasihku, aku amat merinduimu. Jangan kau risau lagi kerana aku akan sentiasa menunggu kepulanganmu.
`Fydah.
Add ons on the photos taken during the Sentosa Outing with the DEVILS. Bear withh some blurr photos and also the oh-so-cute-and-handsome hunks. hoho!
My Bodyguard.
Acap and Haikal.
Posing di bawah pokok kelapa.
Helmi and Haikal.
The first five guys warming up for a game of ball while waiting for the rest to arrive.
Luke: Acap!! Drop 10! The rest watch!
Luke: Korg tengok pro main k. Tinggi ehh bolaa akuu tendang! haha.
"Ke mana arahh hendak ku tuju.. Bila hatiku rindu padamu.."
Last human standing. haha!
True Survivors.
Tribute to Helmi. hurhur.
Luke: Alaaaa Kassimmm....!! Kenapaa kau pergi dulu sebelum akuu...!
SMILE!!
Dil and Fik.
Dil&Fik: We are the cheeky boys. =)
SNAP 1.
SNAP 2.
A final group pic before we had our dinner.
To Dil, sorry hor pasal curik gmbar kau then tak bilang. haha! Naingkali aku buat lagik kays. heh.
`Fyd.
"I miss my bf already."
Monday, April 09, 2007
Weeeeee~ Sawadikappppp! hoho. Well, the very last time I updated was tuesday! haha. That was last week! heh. Okay, I'll briefly update you guys on what happen la kays.
Wednesday, I fell sick! hurhur. My body didnt feel good and all. I reached Uncle Mimi's house a lil later than usual. And I slept the whole day there! I didnt really help the kids with their homework. I asked Danial to teach Akif instead. I left as early as 8pm. Watched The Dancefloor. And off to sleep. Sheesh!
Thursday, I felt a little better. Bf came over! And according to Aliff, me and Bf had a lunchner at a coffeeshop somewhere near my Uncle's place. Alright, we both had Soto Ayam. It was uber delicious la can! We always had our Soto Ayam there. Cehh, OUR SOTO AYAM sei.. haha! Then, we headed to Uncle Mimi's place to make sure the 3 boys have done their homework. Then off homee, cos Bf needed to get some stuff from Nadhir.
Friday was a day out withh Bf! Yay~ hoho. We went window shopping. But before that, he bought his dad a new N5300 mobile phone. The phone was kinda cool la. But still, I still think my k800i is the best! hahs. But if someone would want to hand me that N5300 as a gift, I'll definitely take it with an open arms! hahs. Serious! The more the merrier rightt? heee..
Saturday! A sentosa outingg with THE DEVILS! hoho. Coolioss! Fun I say! It was a fantabulous day with them! Even though, I didnt get the chance to get into the sea with all of them. Simply because, period. Yes, period can! grrr. So it was a lil bored for me somehow. But still, I did enjoy myself! And to the Indian couple who kindly gave us the permission to go ahead and use their tent and mat, thanks a lot ayee! I'm not gonna talk about the bad weather aye. hoho.
And definitely, there will me a camwhoring sesssion! =)
And to THE DEVILS, thanks for making that day a meaningful one! *hugs*
YESTERDAY, ALL MY TROUBLE SEEMS SO FAR AWAY. haha! Alright, yesterday the whole family as well as relatives went down to Jurong East Entertainment to watch Anugerah 2007's audition. It was awesomely great la! Even tho the view wasnt that clear for me. Especially when makcik-makcik started talking and gossiping right behind me! Urgh. But nvm. They all make it more happening, I think. hahs. To my cousin who took part, good luck and all the best!
So yaa, now let the picture do the talking. Not Anugerah 2007's contestants! But this kid who made my day! =)
Lutfi, I love you can! hahs.
Bf will be off for field training for 2 pathetic weeks. So that will left me slacking at home all alone with no plans. =( Bf, I love you more!
`Fyd.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
YAY-nesss! I'm gonna friggin update update update! hoho. Be happy k people. Dont miss me too muchh horr. I'm here already, so SMILE k. hurhur. kkays, stop it seii fydah. take care seii.. dont go there seii.
Well, there's tooo muchh to update and upload. So yaaa.. bear with me k.
Friday night, I slept over Uncle Mimi's place cos I'm too lazy to wake up the next morning to go over his place. So I decided to sleep over even though I have second thoughts. The kids were asleep as early as 12am. And I was left alonee with my laptop, which is a good sign, cos I could chat. BUT, the network sucks big time. Andd the only person whom I chat with was Ryn at that particular night. I complained to her how hungry I was and that I'm afraid to hunt for snacks in the kitchen. haha! and that, I gotta control my hunger till the next morning. So yaaa, by 2 plus in the morning I went offline. And I waited for bf to call. Finally he rang me up at 3 am in the morning. Yup! after whichh I could sleep. haha!
The following day that is Saturday, the three little kids and me waited for bf's arrival. haha! And the four of us refused to bathe unless he came over! haha. Mmpos Fyd, kauu ponn dah cam budak2! haha. Nvm, nvm. Must layan the kids mahh. While waiting, we did some colouring in Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles' colouring book that belongs to Irfan. We sure did mess everything up! haha. After whichh we startedd talking crap and draw each other's face using those crayons provided. Then we proceeded to PS2. hahs! Heaven I tell you!! haha. Played one round of game, after which I finally decided to bathe. And forced the 3 little kids to bathe! Heh. All semangat mamat wanna go Timezone. haha!
As soon as bf arrived, we left the house and headed for Timezone! hoho. I gotta layann the youngest one of all, Irfan, to play that dinosaur's scissors paper stone game! urgh. Jadi laa ehh.. dari tak takde. Haha! All $10 to that scissors paper stone game! haha. And the other two boys, I didnt even have the chance to look at what they were playing. Sheeeesh. Mind you $10 each tauu! Afterr gaming session, we had our lunch over at LJS. Since Danial adores it alot! Akif didnt eat, just had Milo cos he was down with fever and sorethroat. Poor thing ayee.
The following day that is Saturday, the three little kids and me waited for bf's arrival. haha! And the four of us refused to bathe unless he came over! haha. Mmpos Fyd, kauu ponn dah cam budak2! haha. Nvm, nvm. Must layan the kids mahh. While waiting, we did some colouring in Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles' colouring book that belongs to Irfan. We sure did mess everything up! haha. After whichh we startedd talking crap and draw each other's face using those crayons provided. Then we proceeded to PS2. hahs! Heaven I tell you!! haha. Played one round of game, after which I finally decided to bathe. And forced the 3 little kids to bathe! Heh. All semangat mamat wanna go Timezone. haha!
As soon as bf arrived, we left the house and headed for Timezone! hoho. I gotta layann the youngest one of all, Irfan, to play that dinosaur's scissors paper stone game! urgh. Jadi laa ehh.. dari tak takde. Haha! All $10 to that scissors paper stone game! haha. And the other two boys, I didnt even have the chance to look at what they were playing. Sheeeesh. Mind you $10 each tauu! Afterr gaming session, we had our lunch over at LJS. Since Danial adores it alot! Akif didnt eat, just had Milo cos he was down with fever and sorethroat. Poor thing ayee.
We proceeded to Banquet to get Irfan chicken rice andd bf bought movie tix for just the two of us to catch a night movie together. We decided to watch The Number 23 since Mr Bean was fully occupied. After that, we proceeded home. I gotta spoonfeed Irfan with his favourite chicken rice. But he didnt eat the chicken. haha! ape cakapp?! While bf and the other 2 boys played PS2 in the kids' room. After which, me and Irfan joined them. And both me and Irfan fell asleep! haha. Waited for Bf to finish up that soccer game they were playing till I feel asleep! Make me wait somemore laa k! Hmpf.
Prolly at 8pm, we headed my place to put all my stuffs. At 8.30pm, we headed to Cwp. Get his camp stuffs, and off to the cinema! The show was interesting and great la. 23 reminds me of my birthdate. And there was one particular scene in the movie that happened on the 23rd of December, and I got all excited andd toldd bf abt it. haha! And oh yah, before the movie started, there was an adverstisement abt the upcoming movies such as Spiderman3. And mind you! Spiderman 3 will be out on 4th may 2007, our 1st ever anniversary la seii! hoho. We're so gonna watch it eh baby? heeee.
After the movie, we had some snap -snap -ING session! YAY-nesss! huhu. And that, we ended the day. Didnt really spend much time with him tho. But we sure did have lotsa fun with the boys kan darling?! Muahss!Alright, if I were to go on and on with every detail, it will be very lengthy. I'll keep it short at the end k.
Basically, Uncle Aling came over on Sunday. And Irfan asked me to bring him over to my place. Just what happen when two rascals meet. haha! Super Irritating i tell you! hoho. But I love them kids laa! heeee. Ohh and not forgetting, the cutest one ever, Amsyarr! I adore this small one! hurhur.
It was suree an exciting weekend! And so here it is, a piece of me! heh.
I met up Acap, Fik and Dil at Yio Chu Kang to accompany Acap to school. Fik headed to the gym immediately. So just me and Dil who accompanied Acap. Helped him up with the letter to be submitted to that super irritating clerk for the extension of enrolment. Seee Acap, stubborn kan. Boss cakap taknak dengarr. Now see what happen! Later akuu takde kawan how? haha. Just hope you'll get a vacant k. =) And yess! Aku nak karaoke pleasee. hoho.
`Fyd.
