Friday, June 29, 2007
Syukur Alhamdulillah now that everything is settled and of course back to normal. =)
Life is full of obstacles. I've been facing lots of personal problems recently that I started to get so emotionally depressed. But again, I will keep telling myself that yes, everything happens for a reason. And not forgetting, Life is short. Make full use of it.
So yaa, now that i've been waiting to what comes next, being patient and all.. like finally the problem is resolved just like that. I mean not like a miracle as in yaa.. a little patience sometimes could make the situation better.
To two of my gfs who are now under pressure or rather hurt, heyy.. dont be okay! And of course, you gotta do somethingg to make things right. Dont just wait till the other party hurt u again. And hey, this aint a revenge or whatsoever. It's merely nature taking its course. Hurhur. To what I've been believing until now, what goes around goes around. And yeah, I'm happy now. Never been this happy all my life and having felt so relieved.
So, do take a chill pill. Dont brood over it. If you could find someone to let it out, please do. It will make you feel better. Trust me. And gfs, always remember that I'm always here if you need me.=)
`Fydah.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
To my utmost favourite wrestler, Chris Benoit, may you Rest In Peace.Pro wrestler Chris Benoit, wife and son found dead.
FAYETTEVILLE, Georgia (AP): Professional wrestler Chris Benoit, his wife, and son were found dead and police said they were investigating the deaths as a murder-suicide.
Detective Bo Turner told television station WAGA on Monday that the case was being treated as a murder-suicide, but said that could not be confirmed until evidence was examined by a crime lab.
Detective Bo Turner told television station WAGA on Monday that the case was being treated as a murder-suicide, but said that could not be confirmed until evidence was examined by a crime lab.
The station said that investigators believe the 40-year-old Benoit killed his wife, Nancy, and 7-year-old son, Daniel, over the weekend, then himself on Monday. A neighbor called police, and the bodies were found in three rooms.
Lead investigator Lt. Tommy Pope, of the Fayette County Sheriff's Department, told The Associated Press the deaths were being investigated as homicide, and that the causes of death awaited autopsy results on Tuesday. Pope said the bodies were discovered about 2:30 p.m., but refused to release details.
The house is in a secluded neighborhood set back about 60 yards (55 meters) off a gravel road, surrounded by a stacked stone wall and a double-iron gate. On Monday night, the house was dark except for a few outside lights. There was a police car in front, along with two uniformed officers.
Benoit was a former world heavyweight and Intercontinental champion. He also held several tag-team titles during his career. He appeared in bouts put on by World Wrestling Entertainment.
"WWE extends its sincerest thoughts and prayers to the Benoit family's relatives and loved ones in this time of tragedy,'' the federation said in a statement on its Web site.
Benoit was scheduled to perform at the "Vengeance'' pay-per-view event Sunday night in Houston, but was replaced at the last minute because of what announcer Jim Ross called "personal reasons.''
The native of Canada maintained a home in metro Atlanta from the time he wrestled for the defunct World Championship Wrestling. The WWE canceled its live "Monday Night RAW'' card in Corpus Christi, Texas, and USA Network aired a three-hour tribute to Benoit in place of the scheduled wrestling telecast.
"My relationship with Chris has extended many years and I consider him a great friend,'' Carl DeMarco, the president of WWE Canada, said in a statement. "Chris was always first-class _ warm, friendly, caring and professional one of the best in our business.''
P/s: Whatever it is, he's still and will remain as one of my favourite wrestler. =)
Monday, June 25, 2007
The exact same song that is playing in this blog has been repeating in my itunes for like hours that I fell asleep. And it's still playing now and I don't even bother to stop it or change to other tracks. Oh please Fydah, stop being emotional. You know you shouldnt and you gotta help yourself and STUDY!
Yes, I've been slacking way too much now that I didnt even bother to touch my school lecture notes to revise. And again yes, for these two whole weeks. I don't seem to be able to focus just on anything other than the problems I'm facing now. First, I can't study at home. 2nd, I can't focus at home. 3rd, I need fresh air to breathe in order to clear my mind and to start studying.
Somehow I did like try the review questions given. And could only like answer couple of questions. Not that bad eh? Nice try! haha. Okay, whatever. I might be revising a lil bit more sooner or later. And this means I might not be sleeping. So to mean that I'll be like a walking zombie in school tmr. haha!
Anywayyys, I think I'm not okay. But nvm. Everything happens for a reason. =)
`Fydah.
Heyy bf! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
When things starts to go against you, you'll tend to get pressurised and going all haywire. But hey, you shouldn't be. Cos everything happens for a reason. You know that these things came upon just to test you. To test your patience. So just go ahead and smile when you know you cant. Just be strong to face the challenges that might falls upon u.
Right now, I know that something is just not right. But I dont try to think of why cos I believe that this happens for a reason. It might be something good or bad. I dont know. I'll now just wait and see to what comes next. If there's a choice, I know I want to be with him forever. But I cant decide.
To you, I hope that you're happy to have choose this path. You know whats best for you. Will be missing you. Take care.
`Fydah.
Friday, June 22, 2007
Why do life has to be in sucha way that a girl gotta change just to make someone feel so pleased and yet it's hurting her? Knowingly that she dont deserve to be treated in sucha way. And why do guys always tend to be sweet at the beginning and nerves-taking after sometime? Why do girls always tend to cry over the littlest things? Why are girls sensitive? Why are guys so egoistic?
I've been getting different kinds of answers from different kinds of people and also different genders. Simply because, different people have different perspective. Some tends to be understanding while some tends to be self-standing. For all you know, you need to focus on the positive ones. But at the end of the day, when you're all alone in your bedroom, you will tend to think otherwise. Yes, the negative remarks. And soon after, you'll start to cry.
A friend could give advices. While friends could not just give advices but ways to overcome them. And some of it might be hurting to listen while some will be soothing to listen. When a friend starts to tell you to do something that you cant afford to do, then you shouldn't. Cos in the end, you're in the loss. The decision is all yours. ALL you need is PATIENCE. If you have this, you will make it through to a stage where you will get pure satisfaction. A reward. So then you'll think that some things are just worth waiting for.
Have you ever wondered whyy all this problems falls on you? It's a test from God. A fate. Something that you cant escape from. To test how far can your patience go. It's super heavy to carry but if you're strong enough you will succeed. Follow your heart. Not the sayings of others. You know yourself the best. For example, if you love that someone so dearly yet he/ she is getting on your nerves, do try to be patient. Cos patience is all it takes to change the situation. And keep in mind, it's a test from above. So when you start to seek for advices, you may find that some of it might hurt you. For example, a friend of yours told you to leave the person you love so much because that person you love so much is hurting you or making you suffer. But you know that deep in your heart you still love him/her. So if that's the case, follow your heart. Don't let other poison you. People might think you're dumb. Then just be it. It's the matter of heart. Don't let yourself suffer more.
There are lots more for us to learn. And life is too short. So do what you heart says rather than being told. Cos it concerns your life. =)
`Fydah.
hey gf! this post is especially for you. i've learnt something today after all the chats we had earlier on. thanks ayee! *hugs*
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
A great day spent with a handful of the Devils. Thanks for asking me along. =)
BUT...
at the end of the day, I know I'm not feeling quite right. Something started to boil up.
I'm LOST & NUMB once again.
Will not be updating for sometime.
Toodles.
`Fyd.
Is this worth waiting for? Do you even understand what is running through my mind? Will you even want to understand?
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Among all 8 contestants who's performing for wildcard next week, I'm rooting for these 3 contestants. Aliff never fails to impress the judges, both Hussein and Nurun have powerful vocals. All the best to these 3 contestants! =)To voters, do not vote blindly. It's about talent not blood. =)
`Fydah.
Monday, June 18, 2007
On the 14th of June, met Mastura over at Cityhall to chill out since it's been long since we last met each other. We strolled down Marina Square before hitting 7-eleven to get some snacks. After which we headed to Esplanade By The Bay to release whatever we had to. Sat there a couple of hours and decided to change the location to Bluelight. But before we actually proceeded to Bluelight, we camwhore right outside of esplanade! hahs. Thanks for your company aye gf! *hugs*
The following day, to my uncle's place over at Jurong West to teach his children. After which Nurul needed my company. And so, I met her up awhile. So it seemed like last week was taken up by Luke's cousin and younger sis.
Sadly, I didnt get to meet my bf on Saturday cos the NDP rehearsal has eventually started. Urgh! So I'm gonna be slacking at home every saturday for 2 months! Sounds interesting aye? hahs. And so, i've decided to follow my uncle to VivoCity along with his wife, kids and my mum just to meet PowerRangers! Reached home at around 3pm.. and I dozed off! After which I gotta rush down to blk 583 with my mum and uncles&aunties to so called "rewang".
Finally, got the chance to meet my bf today! Was supposed to go for the wedding ceremony, but was lazy. It's actually an excuse la. Simply because I wanted to meet that boy! haha! And baby, thanks for the day. You really made my day! Thanks for the movie treat love! I love youu moree. *hugs&kisses*
Tell ya something, this cute boy actually kissed me on my cheeks! hahs. And he just couldn't resist these two words.. 'taik' and 'tetek'. Sheesh. And he made my day too! =)
And wanna see his 'steam' look?
Uh uh, my boys! =)
`Fydah.
p/s: To tell you guys the truth, actually I don't feel like updating. And everything is like so random. It's just something that I do to kill time. Pardon me if it's wayy too boring. =)
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Finally, I'll be updating. Or maybe just a little take-a-look back of the events a week ago.
First thing's first. As I've said in the earlier post that I had a presentation and will be uploading the photos up here. And so, here it is. .
Thanks Sheila for the photos! =)
What comes next was of course our 13th monthsary. I didn't mention it earlier cos there wasn't much to talk about. So yah.. just a photo will do. Cos we didn't celebrate as bf was in camp. Sheesh. And so, Happy 13th bf! =)
Ohh weee.. and not forgetting Linlin and SC who's celebrating their 1st anniversary! All the best and may you both last till eternity!
And that's the mark of the last week of school before study break started. So basically, most of the students would be looking forward to break or in other words "holiday". hahs. So people like me will not be paying attention during lessons at this very special week. haha! And last friday, the last day of the week before study break started, we camwhored! It's been so long since dahornies last camwhored together luhs! haha. And that particular day, we went bonkerz. So here are two collages..
We sure did have fun last friday! hahs.
And so the study week has started eventually! And I'm rocking my ass off at home. Pretty cool aye? hahs. And I don't feel like going out yet. But maybe soon. Hahs.
&i need world peace.
`Fydah.
&hey! i sure did enjoy myself entertaining to your pretence. =)
Friday, June 08, 2007
Jangan Pernah Berubah - Marcell
masih ada perasaan
yang tak menentu di hati
bila ingat sorot matamu
yang kurasa berbeda
* oh janganlah terjadi
yang selalu kutakutkan
beribu cara kan kutempuh
reff: oh cintaku
kumau tetap kamu
menjadi kekasihku
jangan pernah berubah
selamanya kan kujaga dirimu
seperti kapas putih di hatiku
takkan kubuat noda
bayangkanlah dari matamu
bayangkan aku di sisimu
repeat*
repeat reff
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
To my dearest classmate, Goh Lin Lin..
HAPPY NINE-TEENTH BIRTHDAY DARLING!
Oops! Someone's older than me. hahs. 6 mths difference, does that makes you older? hahs. Of course luhh! Anyways darling, hope you had a great celebration todayy ayeee! Wishh youu all the best in whatever you do and stay HOT okays? hahs. Btw, sorry cos we gotta postphone your birthday present. Heh. Be patient kays.. *hugs*
`Fyd.
Some things are better to be left unsaid. Thoughts spoken and demanded. This feeling inside me is killing me softly. Life's like this. =)
Monday, June 04, 2007
Alright. Bf is now enjoying his seaweed shaker fries in camp. And forgotten all about me. It's okay luh. I'm used to it already. heh.
So basically, I had my Case Research Study on Giordano's Presentation. It went smoothly I suppposed. Even though we went out of point, but we've made through. And I cannot wait to get the photos from Sheila. heh. Will, post it here if I've received the photos.
Last night, was talking on the phone with Bomb. A reality talk I supposed. We were kinda debating on some issues regarding priority and also friendship. Seriously, I've never been the kind who likes to debate on stuffs like this.. but eventually I did yesterday. Well, different people have different perspectives. And therefore, we cannot blame that someone if the way he/she thinks is different from ours. We gotta accept others' point of view too. And from there, we could analyse.
However, I'm not going to blame everything to myself nor anyone. Cos I know why I'm reacting like this. We cannot even expect people to be kind to us all the time. It's more important to treat others sincerely kind and not expecting something back in return. But sometimes, when you come to think about it, you'll tend to think that people are just stepping on your head. Taking advantage of your kindness. There's one thing I wanna tell you that at that point of time, the 'SATAN' is controlling your mind, and yes whispering to your ears at the same time.
It is now time for you to always think of GOD. Get nearer to him before it's too late. It's just something to ponder. =)
`Fyd.
I've come to realise one thing. That only God can change us into a better person if we really am determine to be one and of course, get nearer to HIM.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
It has been awhile since I last updated the thanks you(s). Perhaps, I dont even feel like updating much now. It's just the thought of getting the blog going. So at least, you guys know I'm still alive. If you are here to ditch, then just go ahead. You are more than welcome aye. =)
Wondering whenn will I be happy again?
Yours Sincerely,
When will I ever be happy again? Who will put a smile to my face again? Who will cure this pain? Who will ever understand what I'm going through now? Who will even care about my feelings? Why am I reacting this way? Tell me why.
